One tip; whenever drinking Milo or whatever alternatives, ALWAYS DRINK WITH SOME FORM OF MILK. Its soo icky without milk. -.- Lazy wanna open a new tin. Haha. Case pemalas. Oooo. Okay, serious mood.
Mid Year T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E. I am really sorry I have disappointed you guys. I guess, I wont be able to be up to your expectations. I really feel bad right now. I am sorry. Really sorry. Gosh, sad song moment. So much for my big talk and now look, I got smacked in the face by someone named Reality. Hate him, I wanna be with Fantasy. Where everything just goes smoothly. Everything seems right. No problems, no things bad. Too bad, Reality rules the world. Fantasy is only existing in dreams and such. Once again, I apologize. I will though, still always support you through thick or thin.
Also, idk why but, people seems to look down on me. I know, academically and other ways, I am not so Oh-Wow kind but hey, I have feelings. I dont care who you are, what you are like but think before saying anything. Think just cause you have some kind of attitude I would forgive you? Oh please, think what you said to me. I dont know if you meant it but, I took it to heart. Hurt is all I can say. This goes to 3 ppl. I greatly apologise to one of them but I really was mad at what you said. I mean, of all people, arent you supposed to be like my pillar of support. Instead, you are trying to pull me down. Thank god I got no self-esteem issues.
Mid Year results. Gosh. Sad. Failed two papers. :X Hell yeah, I am embarrassed. Was about to cry but dont wanna show it. I like to keep my feelings and thoughts within but sometimes I have to let it go. Tears, anger and hatred. Those are some things I would go through if I cant take it and just have to let go of things. Thinking of what is gonna happen on Friday and the future, well, Im toast. Really toast. Grr, sad song. It said cry. Now I feel it. Emo time. -.- Damn.
Oh and another sorry, to this person. I know you tried to help but, I cant improve. There is just something that doesnt want me too. I know you would be sooo mad at me. But I have weaknesses okay. You have some too. I know, I know. Its important for the future. I tried my best. I thought I would pass but I just couldnt. Im sorry. Its kinda obvious who. I guess. Slow song again. Gosh.
URGHHH, I am so mad and disappointed at myself. How could I be so dumb? Failing two papers. What the man... I am so toast. Imagine how they will react. It hurts thinking what would happen. And what would people related to 'they' react. They would think 'they' are not good people. Weak, unsupportive, dont-care-attitude. The bad comments are endless. Its important to me to achieve making 'they' happy. I feel like dump now. urghhhhhhhhhhh. Feeling down sucks. I just want someone or something to have to cry on. Shall I cry on my cat? Nah, its gonna be like running around the house or smth after getting wet. -.-
"I'll be" - I'll be your crying shoulder. How sweet does that sound right now? AWWWWW-moment people. Oh-my-god, apologize is on now. Its too late to apologize.. Damn, imagine real drama happens. Woah, I can imagine whats gonna happen but I dont think it will of course.. Hopefully. Sorry if I tend to leave you guys in suspense. If you really wanna know what I mean. FIND IT OUT YOURSELF.
I may be smiling on the outside but truthfully, I am just trying to hide the real feeling I have. Cause, I dont like to show I am weak. I would only cry if I cant control it. Cause seriously, many things are going on. Some pretty long, and some recently that I really wish I could change cause it hurts me. Bit by bit. Slowly. And yet, effective to the inner me. I could just breakdown, but thankfully, the outer me is strong and optimistic and pretty hyper. So, my true feelings hide away. *Sigh* My head hurts thinking about things. And thank the exams for it. Grr. I know I am pushing the blame but now is not the time to like scold me for blaming stuffs okay.
Long post. But worth posting. So yea. Sorry for not updating before this. Was at cousin's place. Next weekend too. Yeah me, finally, smth to put my mind off the bad things. Pray that things will go good. Bye people. ;D WILD WILD WET OR ESCAPE THEME PARK, HERE I COME!